EPOV
There were a few better ways to spend my day than car shopping but since Alice had Bella occupied with wedding stuff those weren’t an option. I spent hour after hour prowling car lots to find a perfect car for my girl. The midnight blue Mercedes SLR Roadster wasn’t as flamboyant as I would have liked to get for Bella but it was classy and beautiful. Plus, I’d always liked her in blue. I knew she’d have a fit if she found out what it cost but I assumed she wouldn’t know and wouldn’t want to know so I was probably safe. That or I’d just enjoy the fireworks when she went off.
As I pulled up to our house I did a quick mental scan to see who was on the premises. It seemed pretty quiet so I knew Alice wasn’t back with Bella yet. The only voice I picked up on was Carlisle’s, which was fortunate for me as I wanted to talk to him about Bella. Bella and sex to be specific. No way was I going to try to make love to her without discussing it with my father figure first. Doing it with Emmett and Jasper in the house would lead to endless teasing and very little productive discussion, so now was the time. I raced up to his office.
Carlisle looked up from the medical journal he was reading and smiled. “Edward, how was car shopping?”
“Great, I’m getting her a Mercedes SLR Roadster, it’s gorgeous.”
Carlisle laughed. “I’m sure she’ll be thrilled.”
“Hey, she’ll need a car that can keep up with the rest of ours and it’s less showy than some of the others I was considering.” We could talk cars for awhile, I wasn’t overly anxious to have this conversation now that I was actually here.
Even though Carlisle doesn’t claim to have extra powers like Alice and Jasper and I do, I swear he’s more intuitive than the average vampire. What’s on your mind, son?
I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair. “Well, you know that Bella and I made sort of a deal when it came to getting married.”
“I know you get to get her a new car and pay for college should she go. What more is there?”
I couldn’t stand still while talking about this so I began to pace. “She wants…”
This should be interesting. What does Bella want son? God knows her mind doesn’t work like anybody else’s. I couldn’t even begin to guess.
“She agreed to marry me if we…uh…if I that is…”
“Spit it out, Edward.” If he can’t speak it out loud it’s got to be huge. Listening to Carlisle’s thoughts was not making this any easier.
“She wants me to make love to her.”
“Well, that’s pretty normal, Edward. Married couples do that all the time.” He just didn’t get it.
“No, Carlisle. She wants me to make love to her while she’s human.”
Oh dear. That will be very dangerous.
“I know that. That’s why I’m here talking to you about how to go about it. It’s the only thing she wanted. I want to give her the world and the one thing she wants from me is the one thing that is nearly impossible to give.” I was going to wear a hole in his carpet if I kept pacing so I threw myself down in his cushy leather chair and stared at him. “So, what do I do?”
Like I would know? I’ve never been with a human. Not sexually, at least not as a vampire. Alright, let’s focus.
“Okay, well, when is this supposed to take place?”
“I put her off until the honeymoon. She wanted it to be the night I proposed but I refused until we were husband and wife. She thinks it’s my old fashioned nature, which I guess it partially is, but I also needed time to talk to you and figure out how to do it without killing her.”
You could have knocked me over with a feather when Carlisle burst out laughing. He laughed long and loud. What in the world was going on with that man? I glared at him balefully until he started to settle down.
“I’m so sorry, Edward. I know it’s not funny. It’s just that I’ve been a vampire for well over 300 years and I resigned myself to certain things never happening. Having a sex talk with my son is something I honestly never thought I would do in this lifetime.” I suppose that made sense, but it wasn’t really a laughing matter when I could kill the person I loved most in the world. I am sorry, son.
“Alright, I’m sure it is rather funny to be having this discussion with your 108 year old virgin son. But it’s not funny that I could hurt her, Carlisle. I bruised her yesterday in the tent.”
“Edward, bruised her how? What happened?”
“When she was telling me about Jacob kissing her, I got angry and grabbed her wrists. I didn’t even know I’d marked her until hours later. I thought he did it. I was going to go kill him and then I found out it was me. You can’t imagine how terrible I felt. I can’t believe she even still wants me.”
Of course she wants you, son. She loves you and it was an accident. Bella is bruised on a daily basis.
“Yeah, that’s what she said but it doesn’t make me feel any better that I was the one doing the bruising. And that was when I was angry but still in control. What happens if I get out of control?”
Sex is definitely an act wherein you do lose control. How to go about this?
“Alright, well, I think we have to look at things on two fronts here.”
“Two fronts? What do you mean?”
“I mean, there are two issues of concern. First is bloodlust and then the other is physically hurting her. Do you think you can be with her, in that way, without wanting to bite her?”
“Yes, I’m sure that I can. She’s cut herself around me several times and her blood doesn’t even affect me anymore. Being that close to her shouldn’t be a problem. We spend every night in her bed wrapped around each other.” Good, that’s good.
“You may find, though, that in the moment when you’re most excited, when you’re about to ejaculate, that you’ll be tempted to bite her though. You need to maintain enough of a sense of yourself so that you don’t do that.” Great, another thing I have to worry about. I didn’t imagine I’d even be tempted to bite her.
“Son, when you’re excited, sexually, the more animal part of your nature will come out. We do tend to bite when we’re together.” Oh no, a flash of him biting down on Esme’s shoulder as he thrusts….
“Carlisle!”
“Sorry son, I can’t help my thoughts.”
“Well try, please.”
He chuckled. “Alright. As I was saying, in the moment of release you may be tempted to bite. I think it’s best if you have a pillow or shirt or something nearby to bite instead of Bella.” Great, so now I’d be chewing on furniture or clothing. How very sexy that was. Bella would no doubt be overcome by my love making skills as I bit the mattress.
“Edward, you can do this. You’ve got more self control than all of us combined, as evidenced by the fact that you’ve fallen in love with a human girl and kept her alive all of these months. It will be fine.” I know it will. Well it was nice to hear that he meant it in his head as well.
“Okay, so I’ll make sure to bite something other than her. It’s embarrassing but better than the alternative.”
He smiled. “Now, the other issue is your strength. I assume you’re worried about holding her too tightly or moving too quickly and hurting her?”
“Yes, that’s my biggest fear. I could break a bone or do something even worse without meaning to.” Thoughts of that would haunt my nightmares if I was able to sleep.
“It’s a valid concern, son. When you’re caught up in passion it’s hard to think about your limits.”
“So what do I do?”
“Well, honestly, I think the best way to go about it would be to let her do everything.” He’s not going to like that.
I narrowed my eyes at him. “What do you mean, let her do everything?”
“Well, Edward, as you no doubt know, there are countless sexual positions. While many times the first time for a man and woman is the missionary position…I assume you know what that is?” Smartass.
“Of course I know what missionary is. I know what all the positions are. You don’t live in the minds of every human and vampire for 90 years without being privy to every sexual thought in the book and some that were never written down. Really, Carlisle, the things that people think!”
Oh I bet. I imagine there are things that you could say that would even surprise me. To live in your head, even for one day, would be quite a learning experience.
“Carlisle!”
Sorry, it’s easy to get sidetracked when the topic of sex comes up. You’ll understand, someday. Someday soon, apparently. “My point was, rather than having you on top of Bella, I think you should probably have her get on top of you.” Now that called to mind all sorts of beautiful fantasies. Bella would look completely stunning as she leaned over me and her gorgeous breasts pressed up against my chest. She would…
“Edward?” Carlisle jolted me out of my fantasy.
“You think that would work?” I was willing to try it. Heck, I was more than willing to try it when it came down it. Just to feel her soft thighs pressed against my hard hips would be amazing. And her heat as she lowered herself…
“Are you with me, son?”
“Yeah, I am. Sorry, I was just picturing it.” If I could have, I would have blushed.
He laughed. “I take it you liked the picture? That’s good, it’s healthy to fantasize. I imagine you haven’t really let yourself up to this point?”
“Not often. It’s too hard to think about it and then be near her and not act on it. I want her very badly but I want her to be safe and healthy more than anything.”
“You’re a good man, Edward, and I have all the faith in the world that you will be able to be with Bella, like you want to be, without hurting her. And yes, I do think it would work. It’ll just be important to let her set the pace. You pretty much will just have to lie there and let her lead you.”
“That goes against the grain.”
“Does it though? Hasn’t she been leading you from day one? She’s pretty much tamed the beast, Edward.” I didn’t know if I should be insulted or if I should laugh. I settled on laughter.
“Yeah, I guess that is true. Um, Carlisle, do you think it would be a good idea to have one of you nearby when we do it, just in case?”
“You want us to go on your honeymoon with you?”
“No. For our first time, I want to take her someplace that is special to both of us. After we leave the reception, I’m going to take her to the meadow.” I could picture it in my mind, Bella illuminated by the moon as I lay her down on a blanket? No, a blanket didn’t seem right. Well I had time to figure that out.
“I think a special place is a good idea and if it would make you more comfortable for us to be nearby, we could be. I think, though, that she would hate that idea and I don’t think you’d be entirely relaxed either.” I wouldn’t be but her health was my main concern. “Edward, you don’t need us. If it’ll make you feel better, now that you’ve got a possible plan in your head, ask Alice to look into it. I think she’ll assure you that everything will be okay.”
“You’re right. That would be better. I just want to make sure it’s everything she wants it to be.”
“It will be, Edward. All she wants is you.”
“Yeah, bro, your girl is totally hot for you. She’ll be thrilled just to finally get your clothes off.” Emmett boomed with a laugh as he ruffled my hair. Oh no. Jasper walked in the room a lot more sedately but the look on his face was a match to Emmett’s. Pure, unadulterated glee.
“When did you get here?”
“Right about the time that Carlisle told you to have Bella ride you like you’re in a rodeo!” I had two options. Either hear about this for the next 500 years or kill Emmett now. A growl started in my throat but Jasper sent a wave of calm at me.
“Dammit, Jasper. If I don’t kill him I’ll never hear the end of it.”
“You’ll never hear the end of it anyway, Edward. Even if Emmett was gone, I’d still know. So would Carlisle. And if you don’t think Alice hasn’t seen it and laughed herself silly, then you don’t know her very well. And she’ll tell everyone. So really, death is not the answer.”
“And just wait until I tell Bella!” Emmett chortled.
“Don’t you dare tell Bella. She’d be mortified to know that you all heard something like that. Seriously, if any of you says one word…”
“Chill bro, I’m not talking about telling her now, I’m talking about in a year or two, when she’s no longer a newborn and can’t overpower us all. I’m not getting my butt kicked by a girl.” Well that was something at least; he wasn’t going to embarrass her before it happened.
“Boys,” Carlisle chided. “I know you find it amusing to tease your brother but really, he’s being cautious and smart by talking about this with me. If you have any actually insight to share, please do, otherwise leave him be.”
Jasper smiled. “I don’t know if it’s insight, exactly, but I can tell you that the way you love Bella is unique. It’s deeper than anything I’ve ever felt before, besides maybe my love for Alice. I know that love you feel for her will get you through it without hurting her.”
“Thanks, Jazz. You don’t know what it means to hear you say that.” It wasn’t often that Jasper would share something like that and it meant a lot to me that he would now.
“You know where you could get some insight? How about giving Tanya a call, Edward? She knows what it’s like to be with a human.”
“Oh that’s helpful, Emmett. I don’t think it would be appropriate for me to call up Tanya and ask her about how to have sex with my wife.” I shuddered at the thought.
“Well, I know she wants your bod and all but she has been with humans!”
“Ugh, please, do not bring her up again. I don’t want to think about her. Plus the humans she was with were males and it’s a totally different thing. And she never cared if she killed them or not.”
“Good point. But she will be at the wedding.”
“Enough, Emmett. I am not talking to Tanya about Bella.”
“Maybe she could join you and show you…” That did it, I socked him in the jaw and he flew across the room crashing into Carlisle’s bookshelf. Books fell everywhere.
“I was just kidding!” He charged at me but Carlisle stopped him by stepping between us. Jasper shot another wave of calm in all directions and the red haze that had formed at the thought of Tanya joining me and Bella began to dissipate.
“Emmett, that was inappropriate, apologize to your brother.” Carlisle had his “don’t argue with me” tone going on.
“I’m sorry. I was just having some fun.”
“It’s okay; it’s really just not a laughing matter for me, at least not now. Maybe in 50 years or something, but not when I’m worried about killing the love of my life by loving her too much.”
“You won’t, Edward. Jasper is right. You have a strong and rare love. You couldn’t hurt Bella. And I’m glad you found her, she’s good for you.” Emmett was being serious now. This was the strangest conversation I’d ever had. “Um, sometimes, when I’m with Rose…” Oh no. An Emmett and Rose sex story. This would be traumatic.
“Really, Emmett, I don’t need to hear about you guys smashing walls again, I’ve lived it.”
“That’s not what I was going to say! We’re not always like that you know! What I was going to say is that sometimes we make love very gently. Kind of like I imagine you’ll have to with Bella. It doesn’t always have to be wild monkey sex. You just let the love take you over and it’s really not difficult to be tender.” For real? Did Emmett just say that he and Rose made tender love?
We were all staring at Emmett as if he’d announced that he was joining the priesthood. “What? I can be gentle! It’s just, you know, Rose really misses being a human. So sometimes we pretend we are. It goes against the grain, maybe, but it’s not that difficult. And you are always gentle with Bella, so it should really be easy for you. That’s all I’m saying.” He was getting embarrassed now. Maybe he’d go easy on me for awhile.
“Well, Emmett, that was very well said. I’m sure you’ve given Edward something positive to hold on to.” I was positively floored if that’s what Carlisle meant. Jasper seemed to feel the same way.
“Yes, thanks, Em, really.”
Of course he couldn’t leave it at that. He left the room and returned in a flash. “If you need some visual aids, show this to Bella.” I reflexively caught the “Girls on Top” DVD that he threw at me.
“Emmett!” I hurled it back at his head, but he caught it before it could hit him.
“I hear Alice’s Porsche driving up. Perhaps we should end the discussion on that note for now? Edward, if you need to talk to me anymore, without your brother’s help, we’ll make time.” Carlisle promised me. I nodded and walked down the stairs to greet my love as Emmett’s laugh followed me down the stairs. 50 Cents “Candy Shop” boomed out of his stereo, going incrementally louder when it got the line about getting on top and riding like you’re in a rodeo. I was going to have to kill him, no doubt about it.
Bella raised an eyebrow as she got out of the car and registered what was playing. “You guys are listening to rap?”
“Emmett is, “I muttered, not meeting her eyes. “You don’t want to know.”
Alice trilled a laugh and walked toward the house. “I’ll tell you someday, Bella!” Yep, everyone would know soon enough.
“Come on, love. I’ll take you home.” The sooner you’re away from my family, the better.
I loved Carlisle in this chapter! Him thinking about sex with Esme and wishing he could read minds like Edward for one day was hysterical. Very few authors take Carlisle out of his “fatherly” role. I liked seeing more laid back. And Emmett was perfect. Great Job!
Hehe I had a lot of fun writing this one, as you can tell! I am glad you liked it! I look forward to exploring him further in later chapters, he’s been woefully underused along with Rose and Esme at this point. I intend to bring them all deeper into things as we progress though.
Emmett! I love writing Emmett, he has such fun all the time. I just want to hug him! Glad you enjoyed!