Chapter 15
EPOV
Our car ride was brief but it felt endless; the oppressive silence weighing heavily in the car as we both thought about what the next few hours would bring. I still felt incredibly happy but that was tinged with nervousness over the unknown. I drummed my left hand on the steering wheel, my fingers playing the tune that was rolling through my head. Eerily enough that tune sounded rather similar to the Jaws theme. I decided I better quash that immediately; I felt enough like a predator without having the ultimate predator’s theme music running through my head. I reached over with my right hand and entwined my fingers with Bella’s. Just that touch was enough to calm both of us, her shoulders visibly relaxing and the irritating music went away.
Bella turned her head toward me; her eyes were alight with secrets and curiosity. “Are you going to tell me where we’re going on our honeymoon now?” Her soft voice relaxed me even more and I answered her with a grin.
“No, you’ll find that out tomorrow. I will tell you where we’re going tonight though.”
Her forehead wrinkled with confusion. “You mean we’re not heading to the airport now?”
“No. I didn’t think either one of us really wanted to spend our wedding night on a cramped airplane.”
“Well, where are we going then?”
I kept my eyes upon her to see her reaction. “To the meadow. “ A smile brightened her face. “I thought we should spend the night someplace special.”
Her little hand squeezed mine. “Oh Edward, that’s perfect.”
I pulled the Volvo into a clearing. “I’m glad you think so, love. This is as far as we can go by car.” I got out and went around to her side, taking her hand and pulling her gently from the seat. “I’d love to carry you bridal style the whole way there but I think we’d get their faster, and safer, if we ran our usual way.”
She giggled. “I don’t think the meadow has a threshold anyway, so I think it’s okay if you carry me on your back.” She got behind me and I hoisted her onto my back, her little arms wrapped tightly around my neck and her legs clasped around my waist. I was very aware of the feel of her breasts pressed against me and the heat radiating from between her legs. If I was reacting to her this strongly already I shuddered to think what seeing her naked and touching her was going to do to me. I heaved a deep breath and took off through the forest. Trees flashed by in a blur and I could vaguely hear rustling of nearby animals scurrying away, terrified by my presence. All of that was background as I focused on the woman pressed against me; her scent and warmth enveloped me. We neared the meadow and I slowed my steps to a human pace. I reached behind me and pulled Bella into my arms.
“Threshold or no, we’re going to do this right.” Bella closed her eyes and rested her head on my shoulder and I buried my nose into her silky hair. The familiar scent of strawberries washed over me. If I were human, they would surely be my favorite food.
“Are you tired, love?” A part of me hoped she was, that she needed to sleep and we could put this off for another day. Days maybe. Another stronger part of me prayed she’d say no. It had been so long and I wanted her so badly. I was as ready to try as I was ever going to be.
Bella’s eyes flashed open. “Oh no, I’m not tired. I’m just enjoying the moment. I am finally alone with my husband, after all.”
I cupped her cheek in my right palm. “I know what you mean; this was the longest day ever. I never thought Alice was going to let us escape.”
Bella’s laugh tinkled out and filled me with warmth. “Be careful what you say. She knows where we are and she could come interrupt us out of spite.”
“No, she loves me too much to do that. Or more accurately, she loves you too much to do that.” We reached the clearing and I paused. I hoped she would approve of what I had done here. White lights, just like those that had decorated the back yard were strung from all the trees surrounding the meadow. A red down blanket with two fluffy pillows sat directly in the center, a portable stereo and picnic basket lying next to it. I gently placed Bella next to the blanket and she slowly turned a circle taking in the full effect. The meadow was aglow in the gentle white light, the effect similar to candlelight but without the inherent danger of setting the grass on fire.
“Bella, is it okay?” She hadn’t said a word yet and my nerves were getting the best of me. What if she hated it? Oh God, was I one of those cheesy guys in a red silk robe setting a seduction scene for the innocent girl? I was, wasn’t I? I’m a pervert; a clichéd, unoriginal pervert.
My mental hysterics abruptly cut off when Bella launched herself into my arms. “Edward, it’s so beautiful. It couldn’t be more perfect.” Good, she doesn’t think I’m some perverted Don Juan. I sighed with relief. I took her hand and guided her onto the blanket, both of us facing each other.
“I brought you some champagne. I mean, I’m not trying to get you drunk or anything, I just figure you should have champagne on your wedding night. You know a toast; to celebrate. Not to get you drunk though. Just a sip or two.” Dear God, I was babbling. Since when did I babble? I took out the bottle and managed to pour the still icy champagne into the flute without spilling any. I felt like I was shaking like a leaf but apparently my outer self appeared calm.
She took the glass from me and laughed gently. “Edward, this is lovely, thank you.” She took a small sip and sat the glass next to us in the grass. She looked way calmer than I did. That or she was just amused enough at my lack of coherency that it was giving her confidence. She leaned forward and placed a soft kiss on my lips. I longed to sink into it and just give myself over to her completely but I couldn’t.
“Music!” I pulled back abruptly and hopped up to the stereo. I flipped it on and pressed play, starting the CD that I had recorded just for her. It was all piano music, some of our favorite songs.
Bella smiled at me indulgently and patted the spot beside her on the blanket. “Edward, come here, please.” I approached her slowly, feeling like a lamb that was being led to slaughter. If Jasper or Emmett saw me now I’d never hear the end of it. Alice had seen me, though, and she’d probably tell them what an idiot I was being. Wait a minute. Alice saw me acting like an unsure teenager and she didn’t tell me about it? She probably thought it was endearing seeing me so nervous. I was going to pay her back someday. I lowered myself back on the blanket and looked down, plucking at the feathers beneath the surface anxiously.
Bella took my left hand into both of hers. Déjà vu. I remembered the first time that she’d done that, here in this very spot. It was after I told her just how dangerous I was to her and she told me she didn’t care. She loved me anyway. I remember being so amazed by her warmth, both physically and the warmth inside her. I was still constantly floored by the accepting, loving person she was. “Edward, we don’t have to do this.”
My eyes flew up to her face. She looked sad but resolute. “What?”
“We don’t have to do this. I don’t want you to feel like you have to make love to me just because of the deal we made when we got engaged. I want you to want to be with me, not to be with me because you have to.”
I am a complete and total fool. I made her think I didn’t want her by acting like a spastic jackass. I reached my hand out and brushed her hair back, looking into those hurt but trusting eyes. “No Bella, don’t ever think for a second that I don’t want you. I want you more than anything in this world.” She shook her head and tried to turn away but I wasn’t having that. I stilled her. “I’m sorry. I’m freaking out but it’s not because I don’t want you. It’s because I do, so much, and I’m afraid I’m going to be a disappointment to you.”
“How could you ever think that? I love you, Edward, you could never disappoint me. I just want to be close to you, as close as I can possibly get.” I closed my eyes, knowing she meant what she was saying. I had to find my confidence again.
“I feel like a fumbling teenager around you. I’ve never felt like one before and it’s such a foreign feeling. It’s really making me angry at myself.”
She laughed. “You may be a century old but you are still a teenager, Edward. It’s nice to find something that you’re not freakishly good at. Though for all we know, you probably will be anyway.” I joined in her laughter. It was nice to feel her faith in me. The laughter faded from her eyes and she looked at me very seriously. “So far, you’ve done everything right. I know you don’t think you have but you made our place even more beautiful and special than it usually is. You’ve made me feel calm, even though I don’t know what I’m doing either. This, here, it doesn’t matter how awkward it is because it’s you and me. That makes it right.” Her conviction in that fact rang through in her tone.
I stroked her cheek gently and watched her shiver in reaction. She was right and I was going to stop thinking and start feeling. I stood up and extended my hand to her. “Bella, will you dance with me?” Her eyes lit up and she slid her hand in mine and let me pull her up. She rested her cheek on my shoulder and we swayed in time to the music.
She sighed and snuggled further into my arms as I twirled us around the meadow. “Edward, can I ask you something?” Her words were muffled against my chest but I understood her anyway.
“Of course, love, you can ask me anything.”
“What were you and my mother talking about while you were dancing? You had the strangest look on your face.” The tension seeped back into me as I remembered what Renee had discussed with me.
“So, Edward, are you ready for tonight? You better have a big condom supply because I am not ready to be a grandmother. I’m much too young and you and Bella have a lot of living yet to do before you worry about children.” If I wasn’t dead already, this discussion would probably have done me in.
“Yes, Renee, we’ll be safe.” Please, let that be all.
She narrowed her light blue eyes at me. “So what do you have planned?”
“What do you mean? Where am I taking her?”
“No, I mean how are you going to do it?”
“Do what?” She couldn’t mean what I thought she meant, could she?
“I mean the sex! Are you going to do it in some cushy hotel? A hot tub? The shower? On the ground? What do you have planned?” This was not happening. My mother in law was not asking me how I was going to devirginize her daughter. That just was not possible.
“Renee, I really don’t think…”
“Oh don’t you go getting shy on me now, Edward Cullen. You married my daughter partially because you wanted to make an honest woman of her, right?”
“Uhhh…” I was struck speechless. Renee was insane.
“Sex is a big part of marriage, you know.” I nodded. It was safer just to nod. Maybe the song would be over soon. Maybe somebody would cut in. Surely my family was hearing this, where were they to save me when I needed them?
“Alright, clearly you’re not going to tell me how, so I’ll leave that alone.” I breathed a sigh of relief. “So instead we’ll discuss how you’re going to go about pleasing her.” Clearly my sigh of relief was way premature.
“Um, what?” Was I ever going to be able to say more than two words to her? No, probably not. Actually I don’t think I could even look at her again after this conversation. Thank God she lived in Florida.
“Look, Edward, you’re both virgins, right?” I just stared at her and nodded. Why was I even responding? “Okay then, so neither one of you knows what they’re doing.” I just nodded again, it was easier that way. “I know my daughter and I know she’s about as likely to have masturbated as I am to join a convent.” Dying, that had to be what I was doing, I was dying again. “I bought her a vibrator when she turned sixteen but she left it in Phoenix when she moved, still in the package and clearly unused. I know Rosalie got her one but I’m certain she probably didn’t use it last night.” Wait, what? Rose got her a vibrator? I didn’t know if I should be thankful or insulted.
“So the fact remains that neither of you know how to get her off.” I couldn’t look at Renee anymore so I glanced around frantically at the guests. It was then that I noticed my family huddled together laughing hysterically. They knew exactly what I was going through and not one of them was coming to my rescue. Traitors, even Esme was laughing. I hissed at them but that just made them laugh harder.
“Edward, are you listening?” Like I wouldn’t have this conversation burned into my brain for all eternity? I nodded again, words were not coming anyway. “Well I’m going to assume you know the mechanics, you’ve had sex ed right?” I nodded mutely. This was a nightmare. “So you know what the clitoris is?” Oh my God. Emmett and Jasper were actually holding on to one another they were laughing so hard. I had to stop this now.
“Look, Renee, just because I’ve never done it before doesn’t mean I don’t know how. I’m sure we’ll be fine.” Please let that be it. Why hasn’t this song ended?
“Now, Edward, no need to get embarrassed. We’re all adults here. Just take my advice and you’ll have a very happy wife.” She did know she was talking about her daughter, didn’t she? Who does this? “Just remember, the clitoris is the key. Sex will hurt her the first time, so it’s best to try to give her pleasure through the pain. You do that by moving your fingers on her clitoris while you’re inside her. You’ve got nice long fingers, she’ll appreciate them.” Oh my God. What kind of mother in law is this?
“The clitoris is the key, the clitoris is the key, high ho the derry-o, the clitoris is the key.” Emmett was a dead man; turning my torment into a children’s song. He was actually skipping around Jasper singing it softly.
“Oh and one more thing. It’s best to give her pleasure before the sex itself. Oral sex is the best way to go about that. Use that tongue of yours for something besides drooling, and don’t forget the fingers,” She patted my cheek and walked off to rejoin her husband.
I shook myself out of that horror and looked down at my wife. “Are you sure you want to know?” You really, really don’t.
She sighed. “Probably not, but maybe you could give me a brief summary.”
“Um, well, she wanted to give me some advice on tonight.”
Bella gasped and flushed. “She didn’t.”
“Oh yes, she really did. I don’t think you honestly want to know any more than that.”
She shook her head. “I love my mother but she honestly has no boundaries.” Clearly, if she can discuss the clitoris with her son in law.
“She did bring up something that I wanted to ask you, though.”
Bella looked at me warily. “What is that?”
“Well, she mentioned something about Rose giving you a vibrator?” I thought about bringing up the one Renee got her but I figured that would embarrass her more than Rose’s gift.
Her blush got impossibly darker. “Uh, yes, that was her shower gift to me.” Interesting. Intriguing. Exciting.
“Are you planning on using it?” I knew she hadn’t used it last night, not in a house full of very awake vampires.
“I don’t know. I hadn’t thought about it.” She was getting uncomfortable. I didn’t want to do that to her, I just couldn’t help imagining watching her pleasure herself.
“Okay.” I wasn’t going to push her.
“Why do you want to know?” Oh sweet, Bella, I want to know because I am a man. We always want to know things like that.
“Because, um, I think it would be sexy to see something like that?” It came out sounding like a question; I didn’t want to offend her.
She looked taken aback. “Oh, well, maybe?” That was not a no! Thank God. I wasn’t going to push it. I rested my cheek on her head and continued to move to the music. Holding her and talking to her had calmed my nerves somewhat.
I lost track of how long we danced but finally Bella pulled back from me and told me her feet were getting tired. I led her back to the blanket and sat her down, removing her shoes and gently rubbing her tiny feet. She moaned with pleasure and lay back, closing her eyes and letting her hair fan across one of the pillows. My body tightened in response to her moan and I felt myself hardening. My breath hitched. It was time. I brought her right foot up to my lips and placed a light kiss on her big toe. Her eyes flew open in reaction and she watched me, excitement starting to burn in those chocolate pools.
I kissed another toe and her heartbeat accelerated. I liked hearing her react to me. Perhaps she’d like it if I…oh yes, she does. I took her toes into my mouth very carefully and sucked gently. Bella gasped and started to wiggle. I dragged my mouth down her foot to her ankle bone, sucking on that as well. Goosebumps joined the gasping and wiggling. I smiled against her skin. It seemed I was doing something right. I traced my lips up her leg to her knee, running my tongue along her smooth skin. I licked behind her knee; women liked that from what I could tell in countless sexual fantasies I’d seen in my head. Bella liked it too. Her scent permeated the air, she was getting excited. I looked up and met the dark desire in her eyes. “Is this okay?” She nodded mutely. “Are you ready for more?” She nodded again.
I pulled the navy blue, clingy material up her legs and my lips followed it inch by inch. I reached her inner thigh and I was so close to the moist heat of her that I could almost taste it. I’m sure my face was warmer than it usually was, just from being close to her like this. I could feel the venom pooling in my mouth. I swallowed it down as I pressed a kiss just below her panties. Bella whimpered. I could feel her vibrating underneath me. The urge to taste her was strong but my need to see her was just as strong. I pulled back and looked into her eyes. Her lids were half open, heavy with her ardor.
I lifted her dress slowly, watching as each delicious inch revealed more of her creamy skin. It was my turn to gasp when I saw the lovely blue nightgown she was wearing underneath. My urge to slowly undress her went away and I removed the dress without any further preamble. The light blue silk clung to her curves, stopping mid thigh with a matching panty underneath. The top was lacy, showing a hint of her cleavage. Thin blue straps were all that held it in place. I had to fight the urge to rip them away so that I could see all of her. We had plenty of time and I wanted to savor this moment and her.
I made my way up to her lips, soft silk pressed to my unyielding stone. This meadow was the place where I had first tested myself with her and I was ready to do it again. I opened my mouth and slipped my tongue into hers. Her tongue met mine. I remained aware of where her tongue was at all times, afraid that my sharp teeth would cut her but it seemed that was another fruitless worry I’d had. I lowered myself against her, pressing her into the blanket, and continued with the slow wet kisses. I hated myself for depriving both of this for so long. It felt right.
Bella’s hand slipped between us and began to undo my buttons. Her movements were sure and steady, very un-Bella-like. I smiled against her lips as she pushed my shirt off my shoulders, finally my skin was touching hers, only that thin barrier of silk and lace keeping me from feeling all of her. Her heat burned against me, fire meeting ice. It felt like steam should be coming off us everywhere we touched.
I dragged my lips away from hers, down her jaw and over to her sensitive ear. I sucked her lobe into my mouth, blowing my cold breath against her soft flesh. Bella moaned and actually thrust against me. I could feel the monster within start to wake. He didn’t want her blood, he wanted her body. I wanted her body, but I couldn’t let the animal in me take over. The desire to tear into her was strong but I beat it back. I pulled away from her ear and put my mouth against her neck, feeling that glorious pulse. That pulse that let me know my Bella was alive and well. I had to focus on that instead of how badly I wanted to take her. I felt myself calming as I slowly traced kisses along her neck, down across her collar bone.
I ran a finger along her shoulder to one of those pretty blue straps. I pushed it slowly along her shoulder, finally pushing it off and leaving it bare. I traced my tongue along the same path that strap had taken. Bella arched her back and pushed against my erection. I stifled a groan but the monster was leashed tight. I didn’t feel that mad urge to possess right now. Some day in the not too distant future I could devour her and take her the way I wanted. For now I would worship her, show her how much I loved her. I lifted Bella from the blanket and sat her up, so I could remove her gown without ruining it. I slid that silk up and watched in fascination as her flat tummy appeared. Her beautiful breasts were next. Finally. I wanted to taste and touch those perfect mounds.
Before I got completely lost in her beautiful body, I focused closely on Bella’s face. I had to make sure she wasn’t frightened or upset. I’m sure I looked more like the monster than the man. I knew my eyes were black with my desire for her. The venom was filling my mouth more quickly with each glance at her nearly naked body. I saw no fear on her face though; I saw only longing and need. “Edward,” her voice was incredibly husky.
“Yes, my love?” I’d give her anything she wanted. Her skin was glowing in the moonlight. For once our color was evenly matched. I lay her back on the blanket, her silky hair trailing over the pillow. She stared back at me with anticipation.
“Touch me.” I shuddered with desire at those words.
“Like this?” I ran a cool finger over her stomach. Her muscles clenched below me, steel under her silky skin.
“More.” That soft whisper moved me. I would deny her nothing. My hands moved up her stomach to her breasts. I bit back a groan as they fit perfectly in my hands. I squeezed them gently. Bella moaned so I squeezed again, a little harder this time.
“Tell me if I’m too rough.”
“No, no, you’re perfect.” She was the perfect one, perfectly soft and smooth beneath my hands. I leaned down and kissed each peak. Bella shoved against me again so I took that as a sign that she wanted more. Gently I took her nipple into my mouth and sucked on it. Bella’s hands flew to my hair and held me against her. I wanted badly to nibble on her but I knew I couldn’t do that now. I gave equal attention to her other breast as Bella’s tugs on my hair became more insistent.
My lips traced a path down her stomach. I drew a heart there with lips and tongue, breaking it only to slide my tongue into her perfect little belly button. The taste of her skin, here, in the places I’d never allowed myself to see or touch before, was even more delectable. I wanted to spend my entire existence lost in her.
My tongue reached the final barrier that remained between me and a completely naked Bella. I traced her hips along that line of silk. I looked up at her as my fingers curled under the waistband of her panties. Bella didn’t flinch in the slightest as I pulled that scrap of silk down her legs. A slight blush stole across her skin as she lay bare to me but she didn’t attempt to cover herself or move away. I cupped her cheek with my hand and she leaned into it, turning her face to the side and running her tongue over my palm. I gasped as she opened her mouth and sucked my thumb into it. The animal inside begged to be unleashed but I would not allow it.
“Where did you learn that?” I felt like my eyes were going to cross from the pleasure that hot little tongue was working against my thumb. Bella just shrugged and kept sucking. I swallowed another pool of venom and pulled my hand away from her. Bella whimpered at the loss but I needed to concentrate. I dragged my eyes away from her face and focused on that last uncovered area. There her dark curls were wet and glistening, her scent was calling to me.
I planted open mouthed kisses along her hip, stopping to suck on her pubic bone. I could smell Bella’s ever increasing arousal, coupled with the little mewls she was emitting. My fingers traced a path from her knee up her thigh, pausing only to push her legs further apart. I ran my hand over those soft, springy curls, pressing my palm against her. Bella pushed herself against me and her wetness seeped into my hand. The urge to taste was overpowering.
“Edward, please.” Her throaty moan went straight to my groin. I slicked my fingers down her center, coating them with her juices. I watched her face as I pushed my middle finger into her entrance. It was so tight that I couldn’t fathom how I’d ever be able to fit inside her. I bit back a groan as the heat enveloped me. I moved my finger slowly in and out as Bella pushed against me. “More. Oh God, please, more.” So I slid my pointer finger in as well and it felt impossibly tighter. My tongue still yearned to taste so I leaned forward and ran it over that bundle of nerves. Bella jumped against me and tightened her fists against the blanket. I bit back a laugh as I thought maybe Renee was right, the clitoris was the key. Someday I’d tell her.
Bella’s taste was pure heaven. I didn’t need pearly gates and angels with harps, my angel was right here and this was where I belonged. I moved my tongue over her, increasing the speed as I increased the thrust of my fingers. Bella was wiggling all over the blanket; I had to use my other hand to hold her still. She bucked against me and I pulled back and carefully tucked my lips over my teeth for her safety. Bella didn’t care for that and she yanked my head closer, burying her fingers in my hair. It almost hurt. She got louder as she got closer to orgasm. I was dying to feel her go over the edge. I smiled to myself as I sucked her clit into my mouth. I couldn’t use my teeth but my lips were hard enough. I pressed them roughly against her, almost as good as biting down. She screamed my name and her body started convulsing. She was so beautiful, lost in her pleasure. I kept my fingers and tongue moving as I watched her thrash on the blanket.
Seeing Bella like that, completely undone by me nearly drove me mad. I had to have her, now. Bella’s body was still moving, little aftershocks of pleasure. I wanted to feel that. I quickly removed my pants and underwear, waiting for her to take them off was not an option. “Bella, sweetheart?” She opened her glazed eyes and tried to focus in on me. “Are you alright?” She flashed me what looked almost like a drunken smile and nodded. I chuckled in triumph. “See, you are intoxicated by me.”
Bella giggled and pushed herself up. “That was…that was even better than I ever imagined.”
Only Bella could make my dead heart beat again. Here I was raging to have her and she melted me with her words. “You’re right, love. It was better than I could have hoped.”
Her eyes traced over me and suddenly she took in the fact that I wasn’t wearing any clothes. I bit back a smile as I saw her eyes widen at the sight of just how very excited I was for her in that moment. “Oh!” She bit down on her lip and I actually felt myself twitch. I watched as she tentatively reached out and took me in her small hand. I bit back a groan at her touch. Her eyes watched my face as she ran her hands over the length of me. I felt myself get even harder. How was that possible? I realized that I wasn’t going to be able to let her touch me for long; I wouldn’t be able to last.
“Bella, I love having you touch me but you can’t right now.” She looked hurt and I wanted to smack myself for upsetting her. “No, baby, you don’t understand. I’m too excited and I want to be inside of you first.” The smile quickly returned. She started to lie back down on the blanket but I stopped her. “Bella, for the first time, since we don’t know for sure how I’ll handle it, it would be better if we did it another way.”
She frowned at me. “What way?” What, did she think I wanted to try some weird Kama Sutra thing? I mean, I did, but not for the first time.
“Love, I think it would be best if you were on top of me the first time, so that I don’t hurt you.”
She began to look a little nervous now. She bit that lip of hers again and I twitched some more. “But I don’t know how.”
I smiled gently at her, trying to ease her fears. “I don’t know what I’m doing either and so far, so good right?”
She sighed. “You’re good at everything, remember?”
I chuckled. “I am not, it’s just instinct. I’ll help you as best as I can, I promise.”
She ran her eyes over me again and took a deep breath. “Okay. I’ll try.” I lay back and put my head on one of the pillows, watching intently to see what she’d do. Bella was adorable. She looked into my eyes and then looked down my body and then her eyes flew back to mine like she thought she was doing something wrong. I tried to smile reassuringly at her but I’m afraid it looked like a grimace.
She slowly moved toward me, crawling over the blanket on her knees. It was the hottest thing I’d ever seen this side of her being lost in her orgasm. I didn’t know if I could hold off until I was inside her. Bella got up to me and threw her leg across my stomach, effectively straddling me. I felt her warm thighs pressed against me and I wanted nothing more than to thrust into her. I had to wait though, let her go at her own pace. She leaned over and pressed her breasts against my chest, pushing her lips to mine and sliding her tongue back into my mouth. I brought my hands up and fisted them in her hair, holding her to me and enjoying the feel of that warm little body pressed against me.
She trailed her lips down my jaw and neck, planting wet little kisses everywhere. I sucked in a breath when I felt her move further down my body. We were now aligned and all it would take would be one thrust and I’d be inside of her. She trailed her tongue over my chest now and I got lost in the sensation. Nothing had ever felt this good. Her eyes met mine as she reached down and grabbed me, moving me into position against her entrance. I watched, mesmerized, as she slowly lowered herself onto me.
I was on fire. Heat like I’d never known flowed through my body where it met hers. I was barely inside of her and it felt like I would explode. She slowly, torturously lowered herself even more. I felt myself hit the barrier, her innocence. I saw the flicker of pain on Bella’s face but she didn’t stop, pushing further and breaching that barrier. I smelled the blood but it was miniscule and it was nothing compared to the feeling of being inside of her. That held no interest to me, not over this. After what felt like hours I was fully inside of her.
I reached my hand up to her face and ran my fingers over her cheek and into her hair. “Are you okay, Bella?” I knew I had to be hurting her and it killed me.
She nodded. “I’m fine, just give me a minute.” I caressed her hair now, while I could, because touching her would soon not be an option. I wasn’t going to chance hurting her anymore than I already was. I watched as the remnants of pain left her face. She began to move again, slowly pushing her hips forward and back. I felt her tight little walls moving against me. I closed my eyes and fisted my hands in the blanket. I wanted to watch but all I could really do was feel. I wanted to put my hands on her hips and help guide her but fear of injuring her kept me from doing so.
Suddenly, unbidden, Emmett’s voice popped into my head singing “The clitoris is the key, the clitoris is the key.” Dammit. I would never escape that but maybe that was a good thing right now. I opened my eyes again and looked at Bella. She looked gorgeous in the moonlight, her hair falling across her breasts, her lip back between her teeth. I bit back the urge to lean up and bite that lip myself. It was tantalizing. I released my grip from the blanket and slowly brought it up to where we were joined. God that was beautiful. We were connected. I pushed my finger between her lips and ran it back over her clit.
Bella gasped and began moving faster. I moved my finger in time with her thrusts and soon we found a rhythm. It wasn’t going to take long for me at this rate so I increased my speed. Bella moaned and moved her hips faster. I felt the burn that had been in my body since I entered her boiling inside of me. I lost all sense of time and reason as I felt Bella begin to tighten around me. I moved my hand away from her and buried it back in the blanket as my orgasm overcame me. I buried my face into the nearest pillow and bit down as I released inside of Bella.
I don’t know how long I laid there with my face buried in a pillow and Bella’s warm body panting against me but eventually I focused in again. She was my main priority so I saw up and pushed her back. She opened her eyes and smiled radiantly at me. There wasn’t a mark on her, thank God. “You’re okay?”
“Better than okay.” Well that was good to know. I took inventory around me and noticed that I’d shredded the blanket, there were giant rips running on both sides of me. Everything else seemed to be intact though, other than the pillow. I couldn’t stop the triumphant smile from creeping over my face.
I ran my hands through Bella’s hair and kissed her gently. “I love you, Mrs. Cullen. “
She smiled sweetly. “I love you too. Thank you for the best night of my life.”
“Thank you for being my life.” I wrapped the shredded blanket around us and settled back to hold my wife as she slept. This was heaven. This was everything.
Forgot to add, that stuff with Renee, wonderfully mortifying. I can almost feel Edward’s embarrassment. I can relate on a certain level, I have a mother-in-law with no boundaries. She has actually asked about my sexual situations and told me details about her sex life… ew.
Hee, that was my favorite scene I’d ever written. I’ll upload the rest of the story here this weekend, been lazy about it! Thanks for reading!