Posts Tagged ‘Dean Winchester’

What’s that you say?  A blog?  By Nole?  Surely you jest!  Yeah, I know.  I finally got off my ass (or more accurately, sat on my ass) and am posting a mega-SPN blog.  I’ve missed blogging about 4 or 5 shows at this point and I’m not going to go back through and watch because most of them are not worth a second viewing.  Sad but true.  When do I ever say that about this show?  I don’t know if the finale or Jensen’s marriage left me more disappointed.  Let’s call it a tie, shall we?

I’ll start with the good.  The Real Dean returned.  I truly did love that episode, where Dean was going to give up and Cas called him out.  Those two were like lovers battling back and forth and ultimately having Cas beat the shit out of Dean.  Best pairing, ever.  I’m no slash fan but Dean and Cas have chem.  I cannot deny this.

I adored when Dean told Sam that he didn’t believe in him either.  It was the first time in a long time that I gasped out loud and felt like I took a punch in the gut at Sam’s expression.  Nothing could have wounded and cut him more.  And in the past, Sam would have screamed at Dean and run off.  This time?  Sam stood by Dean and told him he had faith in him and that’s what gave Dean the strength to dick over Zachariah and kill him (that rocked).

The boys visit to heaven was also fairly decent.  Loved seeing Ashe again and was sad that he didn’t know about Ellen and Jo.  Hopefully they found one another.  I found it interesting that Mary was there but John was not.  Sam’s heaven, though, was so sad, well for Dean anyway.  I think it was seeing that that helped strengthen his disbelief in his brother.

What else?  It was good to see Gabriel AKA the Trickster again and I loved him delivering his message via porno.  Really, the guy was awesome and I think they should find a way to bring him back.

Now, the finale…what the fuck do I say about it?  It was a hot mess from the get go.  It was clear the rings wouldn’t work when they did it in the first 10 minutes of the show.  So there was no suspense there when Devil Sammy told Dean it didn’t work.  Nor was there any surprise when Dean showed up at the cemetery, followed by Cas and Bobby.  I was happy for the Def Leppard soundtrack, because they were my fave band growing up.  Dean and I were made for one another….oops, sidetracked.

I did have a genuine OH NO moment when Cas exploded at the devil’s hand and then Bobby’s neck was broken.  I had always expected one of them to go but not both.  Of course, they didn’t really give us time to mourn them before they were back.

Was I happy that Sam got some redemption and was able to take down the devil?  Yes, for a moment or two.  I didn’t like that it was seeing the little army man that did it, really.  I wished Dean had been enough to get through to him although all his memories were of him and Dean…so I guess that’s okay.  It just…felt flat.  Sam hops in the hole with Michael/Adam and Cas is back and Dean is healed and Bobby’s alive.  What did we learn there?  What resounded?  Sam’s death?  Uh, no, the final scene fucked that up as well.

AND let me take a minute to talk about Chuck.  I was thrilled he was back, you may have figured out that I’m quite fond of the boy but WHAT THE EVER LOVING FUCK?  Chuck is GOD?  Really?  Has he always been God or did God just pop in after Sam and Dean and Cas took off?  Because if he was God the whole time, why didn’t the shark’s tooth necklace alert them?  Why didn’t Cas know?  And why did the archangel come to protect the prophet?  Does he do that for God too?  It sure as hell felt like they stuck that in without thinking about it and it pissed me right the hell off if I”m being honest.  Do I like the idea that God was really there the whole time, not only watching over them but writing out their story?  Sure, but it was sloppy fucking storytelling and I expect a lot more than that with this show.

And then, of course, we cut to Dean settling into family life with Lisa and her kid, which felt like a complete slap in the face.  That woman is NOT important to us, SPN.  She just isn’t.  If you want me to believe Dean is carrying a torch for an ex, bring back the girl from the stupid truck episode, who we know he not only dated for awhile but actually told his secrets to.  Lisa was a weekend fuck!  I’m sorry, but I don’t buy it, at all.  Is it wrong that I’m hoping demon/devil Sammy kills her promptly to start season 6?  Because I am.

And yes, there we have the big ending…Sam’s back.  Or demon version is.  Or he’s still the devil.  He’s evil, because the light went out in his presence and he’s watching his brother stare into his beer while Lisa putters around like the good little woman she is.  WTF?  Can the dev just waltz back out of hell that easily?  No seals required?  Where’s Michael then?   Is Cas going to come back to help Dean?  Will Dean ultimately have to kill Sam then?  I can deal with that, but this…I don’t know.  I didn’t like any of it.

Dean’s back to being defeated and going through the motions, Cas if off angeling and Bobby’s fighting the fight I assume.  Dean’s playing house with the wrong person and Sam’s hopefully going to rectify that (seriously, I will love him if he guts Lisa in the season premiere, all past transgressions forgiven).   There were some very good episodes in the 5th season but it was a huge letdown ultimately.  I wanted a 6th season, before, to get more Dean.  Now I want it to wipe out the shit that they spewed in the finale, not that I have faith on them improving anything anymore.  I hope they prove me wrong.  Bitterly disappointed.

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Sorry I didn’t post on Supernatural last week.  That episode didn’t do a lot for me personally, although I did feel sorry for Bobby, yet again.  I’ve pretty much prepared myself for his death this season so there weren’t any real surprises.  What did surprise me was the lack of follow up from the last episode that we got to see.  You know, the one where Sam was all hopped up on demon blood again and Dean’s soul was crushed?  Did Sam just get all better and we have nothing to worry about yet again?  WTF?  That annoyed me so I didn’t blog it.

This week though..damn you show.  How fucking low do you have to drag Dean before you actually lift him up again?  I cried, again, at the utter misery that is his existence and the desolate hopelessness that he feels.  And now Cas is along for that ride!  Just…damn it.  That’s really all I can say about it.

We opened with two hunters waking Sam & Dean and blowing Sam away rather quickly.  One wanted to spare Dean but the other pointed out that having a pissed off Dean Winchester on their asses probably wasn’t a good idea.  Dean backed that up as well and told him to shoot him.  We all know Dean doesn’t want to live without Sam, we’ve seen it a billion times before.  This time, they got to die together.

And of course, though they may have been together, their heavens were miles apart.  Dean’s best memories, his heaven, was shooting off fireworks with Sam and getting the crust cut off his bread by his mother.  Sam’s were having his first Thanksgiving with a real family and the time he ran away (leaving Dean to wallow in guilt and the wrath of John) and the day he left to go to college.

Watching Dean realize that was just a gut punch to end all gut punches.  And Sam tried to apologize, to remind him that it was the two of them against the world, but all Dean could see was that Sam was happiest away from him.  Sam got to see that Dean was happiest with his family and that even at the ridiculous age of 3 or 4 he was still playing the peacemaker and trying to make everything right for his mother.  What an incredible character he is.  I wish more people recognized that, truly I do.

Dean, as always, soldiered on to find Joshua.  Josh is the only angel that God bothers to keep in touch with apparently.  Of course, Zachariah was in his element having the boys in heaven and was chasing them all over the place but they did have a little help from their friends.

I loved that we got to see Ash and Pamela again.  Loved it.  And I love that Ash’s idea of heaven was his life on earth, more or less.  I was rather sad that he didn’t know about Jo and Ellen but hopefully he’ll be able to find them and hook up.  He hasn’t found John and Mary either which I find rather interesting.  Maybe they’ll turn up elsewhere, huh?

Zachariah was a raging douche, as usual, but he is so very good at it.  My heart was crushed again when Mary got the yellow eyes and told Dean that she was happy to be rid of him and that even hell was better than being his mother.  Jensen was so beautiful in that moment.  I cried, again.  Then of course the boys got to watch Zach get touchy feely with their mother.  That was disgusting, to say the least.

And as if that all weren’t enough, Joshua shows up and takes the boys to the garden (Cleveland Botanical Garden, HA) and tells that that God wants them to stop looking for him and he’s just not interested in saving the world.  He’s just gonna hang out for awhile and let the war rage and that’s about it.  He didn’t want to hear a word they had to say and Joshua told them he was sorry and he was rooting for them and sent them back with their memories in tact.

It seems our boys died more than the times we’re aware of, because the way Zach and Joshua talked about it they’d been up there plenty of times but had their minds wiped.  I’m glad we didn’t have to see all that because I’ve seen enough of Dean dying to last me a lifetime.

Once back in their bloody bodies, Dean immediately reached for the phone and Cas was on the scene.  And there was another soul completely crushed.  Cas tried to hold on to the vein hope that Joshua was lying but Sam assured him that he wasn’t.  Then, heartbreak some more, Cas looked at the sky, said I believed in you, and gave the amulet back to Dean, the one that would lead them to God.  Before the boys could say anything, he vanished.

As if that wasn’t soul crushing enough, Dean took the amulet and held it over the trashcan for a minute before dropping it while Sam watched in disbelief.  It’s interesting that the God side of the equation, Dean and Cas, are so disheartened while the Lucifer side, Sam, still has some hope.  I’m not sure what that means exactly, though I do believe Dean will eventually find his will to fight again.  He has to.  It’s what he does.

But damned if I don’t understand why he’s ready to just say fuck it.  After all, it’s what God seems to have done.  And God was the only thing that Dean was holding onto anymore.  To the point that he was actually begging him for help.  And then God shits all over it through Joshua.  I’m actually angry at this fictional God!

Mad props to Jensen for his performance, yet again.  He broke my heart over and over this episode and the cherry on the top was Cas’ when he heard what God had to say.  Poignant as all hell.

I’m not going to try to analyze this one to death (til ram gets through with it anyway).  I’m just teary-eyed and hurt and touched beyond belief at my reaction to this show yet again.  Much, much better than last week.  Next week looks pretty interesting as well.  Not much more to this season left and still a lot to do and a lot more soul crushing to be wrought I imagine.  I hope I have the strength to endure it.  I now, ultimately, Dean does, no matter what he thinks and says right now.

I’ll post pictures when I feel like looking through them.  Too drained right now!

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Dean finally meets Michael

Fate.  Destiny.  Bloodlines.  Fathers & sons.  Brother vs brother.  Present meets past.  Last night’s Supernatural had a little bit of everything and a lot of what I’ve been craving for weeks on end.  Finally Dean meets Michael.  Finally Sam gets to meet his mother.  Finally we see Castiel.  Finally Sam & John get to have a decent talk about how Dean and Sam were raised.  Finally Dean revealed his true self to his mother.  Finally, Anna died.

Okay, that last one was just icing on the cake but you knew I’d be celebrating the crispy critter that she became.  I am so Michael’s bitch after that move, especially while he’s wearing the yummy young John Winchester while doing it.  Seriously hot.

Total yum, especially when an angel's wearing him!

Anyway, Anna tries to reach out to Dean, interrupting one of his prurient dreams of angels and demons and asking him to meet her.  Thankfully, our Dean was not born yesterday (though he wasn’t born in part of this epi, hehe) and he told Castiel who went to meet her in his place.  It seems Anna was in Heaven Prison for awhile and that’s not a pleasant place to be.  Cry me a river, Anna.  She tells Cas that killing Sam is the only way to stop Lucifer but Cas won’t sign off on this because Sam is his friend now.  That’s a definite about face for our favorite angel, in the not too distant past he was all on board the Kill Sam train.  I like to think it’s his love for Dean that makes him unable to go that track now.  What?  He does!

So Anna takes it upon herself to head into the past to kill John and Mary before they even have the boys.  Cas figures out where she is and zaps himself, Sam and Dean to help.  I have to give major props to Jared for Sam’s reaction to seeing his younger parents for the first time.  The love and awe he had on his face when looking at Mary was heartbreaking and adorable.  It definitely made me think about to last week’s episode and his sneering at the trappings of traditional family.  Methinks he might have changed his tune after a little time with his parents.

Bloody, soon to be dead, Anna. Yay!

Mary remembered Dean from his other jaunt into the past and was none too happy about his presence.  Dean managed to get her to listen enough to hear that she and John were in danger from angels (thanks to Sam interjecting that last part) and she was prepared to run with them.  But John got a call from his boss and went to meet him only to find Anna.  Sam & Dean got there in time to send her away via the blood drawing on the wall.

Sam finally got to meet his Mom.

Then we get to the good stuff.  John, driving the Impala and yelling at them all to be quiet in a very fatherly way, is stunned to learn about monsters and hunting.  He & Sam have a conversation about how Sam could have been raised and what kind of terrible father he had to allow that.  Sam, for the first time, was able to tell his father that he understood why he’d chosen that life for them, that thirst for revenge.  It was fascinating to see John play the Sam role and Sam play the John role in that conversation.  I thought they both were excellent.

I love John and Mary. That's baby Dean in there!

That was countered with Dean’s conversation with Mary, wherein he finally revealed that he was her son.  He told her about the song she sang him at bedtime and the soup she made him when he was sick.  He begged her not to go into that nursery the day that she dies, he even told her why and that her sons would be cursed.  Mary was scared and upset and disbelieving but somehow accepting at the same time?  I don’t know how to explain it.  Sam interrupted and told them both that avoiding the nursery wasn’t enough, she needed to leave John and never have them and never look back.  Mary kept saying she couldn’t, finally revealing that she was already pregnant with Dean.

That doesn't look like it feels too good!

That moment was interrupted by the return of Anna, this time with young Uriel in tow, set on killing the men that kill him 30 years later.  John is dispatched and Anna stabs Sam and leaves him for dead while Dean tangles with Uriel and Anna goes after Mary.  Outside, a flashing light appears and all of a sudden John is inside the house and Michael is inside John.   He touched Anna and fried her to a crisp.  I laughed.  He dispensed Uriel with the snap of two fingers.  Michael, in a word, was hot.

Feel the heat!

Dean demands that he fix Sam but Michael says he will in good time, after they’ve had a little chat.  Dean asks how he can be inside John and Michael tells him that their bloodline is what makes it possible, he can inhabit anyone in that family (except for probably Sam I’m guessing).  When John heard that Michael could help Mary he let him right in.

That's what happens when you try to take Dean away, bitch!

Michael explains to Dean that his life is fated, always, to come down to letting Michael inside so he can fight Lucifer.  Every step John and Mary made in life led him down this path.  I was happy to find out that Michael won’t leave Dean a slobbering idiot when all is said and done.  I have a question…why can’t Dean let Michael in to fight Lucifer in that other body?  I know he’s all about free will but I’m thinking he’d be willing to do it if he didn’t have to kill Sam in the process.  I suppose there’s some caveat to that we don’t know about at this point.  Dean doesn’t say a lot but he’s still clinging to the idea that he doesn’t have to go along with this masterplan.  He tells Michael to take his brother and take their fight off his planet.  So cute.  Kisses to Dean.

Ram outlined this convo a lot better than I could after only one viewing so go check out her post on the matter, over at the I Love Bad Boys blog.  Michael zapped Sam and Dean back to the future and Cas appeared but promptly passed out.  He’s not able to travel through time as easily now that’s not a favored angel anymore.

Dean pours drinks to Team Free Will and Sam questions him, asking if there was nothing, not even saving Mom, that would make him agree to let Michael in.  Dean doesn’t really have an answer to that and we’re done with the episode.

This was the kind of epi I’ve been craving for ages now.  I love young John and Mary (seriously, give them a spin off or something).  I love Cas and Michael.  I love Anna dying.  I love our boys confronting their pasts and filling in some of the many missing moments they had with their parents.  I hope they manage to see them again before the series ends.  A hug or two would be nice!

See you next week for an episode that appears might bring back out bloodlusting Sammy.  Could be interesting!

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I Miss Dean

Even though Supernatural has displeased me a few times this season, I am still missing me some Dean Winchester.  Or Jensen Ackles.  Whatever.  And I know you are too.  So I am posting this gift for you and for me.

There are not nearly enough shirtless and sorta pantsless Jensen pics out there.

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How cute was old man Dean?  I thought he was awesome.

Another Supernatural with an old school feel but definitely enjoyable.  This is, of course, because of snarky, grumpy old man Dean and Bobby combining forces to give Jack Lemon and Walter Matthau a run for their money.  I won’t pretend that I was not slightly annoyed that Sam, the least experienced poker player, is the one to save the day, but that’s a minor bitch that I can get over.

Dean was no match for the witch, apparently Sam was.

Sam & Dean go to a town that has a 25 year old man die of old age.  Turns out there’s a poker game where you bet years of your life and that guy lost.  Dean calls Bobby to discuss the happenings and Bobby, clearly unhappy with life, hits town himself and loses 25 years.  Dean takes on Patrick, the manwitch as Dean calls him (hee) and loses 50, 25 that he gives to Bobby to return him to normal and then 25 for himself that he loses, making him 80 years old.

We don’t get to see the loss, we just get to see Sam come back from his burger run and encounter an old man that he is about to shoot before Dean tells him to relax, it’s him.  Sam tells him he looks like Emperor Palpatine, Bobby calls him John McCain and Dean refers to himself as the old chick in Titanic.  Awesome.  Kudos to the actor playing Old Dean because he had the tone and mannerisms down.

Hilariously, Dean’s bacon cheeseburger gave him acid reflux, thus he had to give up his beloved food.  Dean wants to be Benjamin Buttoned back into burger shape and then he hits on this woman at the hotel who tells him he’s just like her grandfather.  Bobby and Sam are quite amused, as was I.  Silly girl, if she only knew what she was really laughing at.

Patrick the witch fakes getting hit by a car and then steals it, much to Dean’s amusement.  He admits to rather liking him.  They follow him to his place to try to steal back the chips.  The elevator isn’t working so Bobby can’t go up and they have to use the stairs and poor Dean is about ready to die at the second floor.  The chip plan fails, as it’s not the chips it’s the chanting and Patrick and his wife catch them in the act.  He lets slip that Dean’s heart isn’t very good since he ate like crap all those years, then claps at Sam a few times and gives him an STD.  He starts walking funny and Dean tells him he got the clap and laughs.  Hee.

All fun aside, the meat of this episode really came when Bobby railed at the boys about wishing that he had the strength to kill himself.  He wants to play again because he has nothing to live for.  He hates watching others fight while he’s stuck in the chair doing nothing.  Jim Beaver was great in this scene.  I didn’t like that Dean only said his name and didn’t do anything else but it led up to what I wanted in the end so I won’t bitch about it.

Female witch woman met the guys back at their hotel room teaching them how to reverse the spells.  It turns out she lost her child and she’s lived a long time and is just tired and wants to go.  We get to see that Patrick does have a heart, willingly giving 13 years to an old man even though he could have beaten him.  Sam goes to play Patrick while Dean & Bobby work on getting the items needed to reverse the spell.

Dean keeps whining and complaining about sore elbows and a hurt back.  He and Bobby just trade insults back and forth.  After Bobby tells Dean to stop bitching, he informs him that killing him is on his bucket list.  Meanwhile Patrick is taunting Sam about being at the kiddie table, not being respected by Dean to handle things himself.  Sam keeps eying a toothpick that Patrick is sucking on, he steals it and gives it to Dean to use in the spell.  It turns out that Dean trusted him enough to let him provide the distraction while they gathered their items.  Unfortunately, Patrick was on to him and made sure he got the wrong toothpick.  The spell failed and Dean was not yet pretty again, much to his consternation.

Patrick is pissed about Sam cheating and nearly magics him to death but wifey steps in and admits that she’s the one that told the boys how to kill them.  He orders Sam to keep playing while Dean and Bobby try to get some more DNA at the witches apartment.  Patrick taunts Sam about being a cautious player but turns out that Sam had nothing in his hand, bluffed him cold.  Patrick tells him that if they had time he could make a player out of him; Sam says he has plenty of time and Patrick tells him he has minutes.  He won’t let Sam go, so Sam has to play on as Dean collapses.

I did like that Sam’s immediate instinct was to go after Dean and he played recklessly once he knew he was in danger.  That felt like old times with the brothers, putting each other first.  He was in full on panic mode and just threw his chips in without even looking at his cards.  He wanted the game to be over so he could get to Dean.  Patrick had a full house, fours and aces, and thought he’d won but Sam had four fours to take the pot and save his brother.  Patrick tells him there’s more to him than meets the eye.  We knew that already.

While I loved old man Dean, I shall always prefer Pretty Dean.

Bobby’s panicking because Dean wasn’t answering him and out comes Pretty Dean, dancing and clicking his heals.  Bobby calls him an idiot in that special Bobby way, relief in his tone.  Patrick plays cards with his wife and she loses so she can die and go be with their daughter.

Dean comes in with his beloved cheeseburger while Sam runs out to get his booster shot to clear up his clap. hehe  Dean apologizes to Bobby for giving him shit and calling him an idiot.  Then he informs Bobby that he’s not useless and makes Bobby stay and listen to him.  I’ll quote again.  “You don’t stop being a soldier because you got wounded in battle.  No matter what shape you’re in, bottom line is you’re family.  I don’t know if you’ve noticed but me and Sam, we don’t have much left.  I can’t do this without you.  I can’t.  So don’t you dare think about checking out.  I don’t wanna hear that again.”  Bobby looks teary and says okay.  Dean tells him good and Bobby thanks him and asks if they’re done feeling their feelings so they can get out of the room before they start growing lady parts.  Dean throws his cheeseburger away and then calls him Ironsides again, Bobby’s a little perturbed that he seems to have acquired a nickname.  He looks up and sighs, was it a sigh of acceptance?

I loved the conversation.  I was so surprised that Dean didn’t say much of anything when Bobby talked about eating his gun but he just kept it and dealt with it when he was back to normal.  He needed to let Bobby know just how important he was to them.  I was hoping for him to say something about him being more of a father than his own was but he didn’t go that far.  Still, the family aspect was heavily addressed.  It made me fear for Bobby’s future, honestly, but he’s okay for now and that’s what matters.  Really good scene for Jensen and Jim.  All the emotion was there and I felt like I’d been punched in the gut I was so into it.

I like episodes like this, that have something so very important to say without being over the top about it.  I truly hope Bobby has more coming up that allows him to feel useful.  I think Dean will make sure of it.  So, there you have it, next week we get the TV one, with the return of Chuck it appears. Yay for Chuck!  We’ll see on the episode, it’s a few too many humorous ones in a row for my taste but I’m keeping an open mind.  Oh, and I forgot to say it, but yeah.  I totally found Old Man Dean attractive.  What can I say?  I like his attitude and find it sexy, that didn’t change even though he was wrinkly.  Don’t worry, I’m calling the psychiatrist next week.  Instead of talking, I’ll just have them read this blog and a few of my other ones mentioning my weird attractions. hehe

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I do so love the Fed look!

I do so love the Fed look!

This week’s Supernatural, I Believe The Children Are Our Future, was yet another blast back to season one, at least it felt that way to me.  Other than the presence of Castiel, there was not much that screamed season 5 to me.  I can’t decide if that’s good or bad.

I haven’t a lot to say about the storyline but I did enjoy seeing Dean eating with relish and having fun again.  However, it irritated me because what I worried about last week seemed to be coming to pass.  The brothers seem fine with one another again and they appeared to take over the earlier roles.  Sam the sensitive one, reaching out to the child, and Dean the wisecracking one.  But you know what I learned in my Supernatural Season 1 rewatch this summer?  It was the Dean was the one who connected with kids, not Sam.  Before that rewatch I would have thought that but I was wrong.  Oh well, I don’t mind a little role reversal now and then.

See? Another perfect casting job, the kid is angelic and scary at the same time.

See? Another perfect casting job, the kid is angelic and scary at the same time.

So it seems that the anti-Christ kid is gone, apparently surfing somewhere instead of picking sides with the angels or the demons.  I highly doubt we’re going to see the kid again which is actually pretty sad.  Once again, casting came through and found an adorable child that had the ability to be both endearing and menacing at the same time.  Why can they find perfect kid actors time and again but fail so epically with females?  I don’t get it.  Another post for another day I suppose.

Sam & Dean were not too pleased at the thought of killing a kid.

Sam & Dean were not too pleased at the thought of killing a kid.

There were two truly interesting things that came out in this episode, I thought.  The first was Sam wanting the kid to know the truth and to make the choice that he himself didn’t.  He wanted to see someone do the right thing after his failure last season.  It was kind of heartbreaking to see just how important that was to him.  I liked that he wanted to tell Jesse the truth and that he ended up doing it.  I consider that self-revelation an important part in his step to redemption (which is nowhere near complete).

A toy Castiel? I think I know someone who would like to play with him. hehe

A toy Castiel? I think I know someone who would like to play with him. hehe

The other thing that really caught my eye was the relationship between Sam and Castiel and it’s parallel to Sam & John Winchester.  Particularly in regards to Dean.  Cas called Sam out on his making the wrong choice and Sam really had no response to that.  Dean, ever the peacemaker, again tried to step in.  It just felt like he’d been sucked back into that middle role that he constantly was with his brother and father and I felt for him.  I like that Cas is still holding Sam responsible for his actions as I get the feeling that Dean is beyond it now.  I know what we all discussed last week but Dean didn’t jump on Cas’ side when he was challenging Sam, nor did he rush to Sam’s defense, so maybe he’s really and truly in the middle.  I don’t know.  I was glad that the boys both refused to kill Jesse, they haven’t changed that much that killing a kid would be alright with them.  I think, even though Cas said Sam wouldn’t hesitate last year, that he just might have.  At least until the end of the season.

I’m really kinda sad that they had Jesse just vanish instead of heading off to Bobby, I kinda liked the thought of him kicking it with the kid and practicing the mojo all over the car yard.  It would have been cute and made Bobby feel more involved.  I miss Bobby.

I’m of two minds on the return of Dean’s juvenile sense of humor.  On the one hand, I love seeing him having fun and laughing again.  On the other hand, there’s a time and a place and it doesn’t feel like now is the time or place.  But then again, anytime you see an angel sit on a whoopie cushion it’s a pretty awesome thing.  Cas’ face and Dean’s reaction were spot on, as always.  I also grinned when he started eating the ham after he cooked it with the joy buzzer.  I always love Dean, even when he’s being juvenile.

So that’s really all I have to say about the episode.  I’m sick and a little less chatty than I am most days so that’s part of the brevity here, the other part is this episode didn’t do much to advance overall plot since I don’t think we’ll see Jesse again.  It did set up some Cas/Sam conflict and give Sam another chance to show some remorse, but other than that it was just an okay episode.  We’re off next week and then old man Dean will be in my life.  If I find him attractive I’m going to have to look into counseling.  That might disturb me more than my Dark Edward fetish.  See you in two weeks and we’ll find out.

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This episode kinda made me feel this angry.

This episode kinda made me feel this angry.

I could yap about the mystery of the week and rail about Paris Hilton touching MY Jensen for a few paragraphs but that would be pointless.  Because really, that wasn’t what mattered (although I do hope that Jensen disinfected after shooting) this episode.  I thought about titling this blog Sammy Steps Up because it was all about Sam trying to take back some power.

I am not on board with Sam blaming any part of his decision making on Dean; Sam is a big boy and he’s always been driven by either a thirst for revenge, a thirst for power or just a desire to be different from his family.  We saw that from first episode when he pointed out how different he wanted to be from his brother and his father.  This is nothing new with Sam, it’s been that way since we’ve known him.  Did John and Dean shape that?  Sure, but even after he broke away he still had this drive to prove himself that had nothing to do with them.

I will, however, give credence to the fact that Dean has coddled Sam from day one and that did contribute to his desire to have some power and control in his life.  He just chose the way of getting that very badly.

Not sure how I feel about Sam after this episode.

Not sure how I feel about Sam after this episode.

If I am to give allowances to Sam’s behaviors based upon his brother and father’s actions, though, shouldn’t Sam do the same thing for Dean?  Dean has been raised from the time he was 4 years old to protect Sam.  That was his number one job from the moment that Azazel took their mother.  It was how he was raised, drummed into his head over and over by an overbearing, controlling, distracted father.  Big brother is to look out for little brother and that’s what Dean has always done.

I’m not saying that Dean shouldn’t have loosened the reins on his brother, I’m just saying that he had his reasons for not doing so and it’s pretty hard for him to change that behavior, especially now.  He clearly wasn’t being overly controlling of Sam last season when he sneaked away with Ruby…if anything Dean could argue that he should have kept a shorter leash on Sam and it might not have happened.

How many fantasies got started from this scene?

How many fantasies got started from this scene?

Is it just me or did this episode seem to serve as a big “Look at Sam, he’s the smart one, Dean’s lazy and avoiding the real work” type of episode that we used to be exposed to so often in season 1 and 2?  The whole episode felt like a flashback to those times anyway…Dean was the bossy bully and Sam figured everything out while Dean just goofed around and got sarcastic.  I didn’t care for it at all, even though the episode itself was fine.

Sam walking in on Dean’s conversation with Bobby, wherein he basically blamed him for the apocalypse, was just a set up for the other two major talks the brothers had.  Sam wanted to talk about it but Dean continued to blow him off, just as he’s done all season when Sam tried to apologize.  Some would construe that as solely being about Dean’s anger but I choose to think there’s more to it than that and their final conversation gave that some merit.  Sam took responsibility for starting the apocalypse again and Dean pointed out that he broke the first seal himself.  Sam said you didn’t know and Dean said neither did you.  That was his acceptance that though Sam was partially responsible, he didn’t know what he was doing just as Dean didn’t when he started things either.  Dean made Sam come to that realization about himself as well and the blame game seems to be over.

Let me focus back on that second conversation for a minute.  I did like that Sam told Dean that he didn’t want to go back to the way things were because that is what led them to where they are now.  I always say that about having regrets, there’s really not a point because whatever decisions you made then led to who you are now.  I don’t mind Sam stepping up and taking more of a leadership role but he needs to know that comes with taking responsibility for his actions.  He said he does but he still mentions his brother’s own culpability in his choices and honestly, he can’t do that if he wants to be a leader.  He needs to own his own actions…he says he does but if he really did would he say that Dean’s treatment of him led to his choices?  Isn’t it true that Sam made his choices BEFORE Dean even got back from hell?  He was already using the mojo then, after all, and becoming addicted to the power.  So there’s a lot more to it than just “Dean didn’t let me make any decisions” situation.

The more I think about it, the more annoyed I am getting at the way this episode portrayed the brothers.  Like Dean was the puppet master or something?  I don’t know.  It’s bothering me more as I write about it.  rameau, I need you to weigh in and tell me if I’m going way off base here in what was mostly a light episode cause I am working myself up a bit!  hehe

I guess I don’t mind Dean apologizing for being too overbearing with Sam but I’d like Sam saying he was sorry for the crappy way he treated his brother last year as well.  Dean letting Sam drive the Impala was a signal of the trust being back on his end and I’m good with that, though I think Sam has more earning to do.  I guess the writer’s don’t though, this seemed to be their way of reestablishing Sam as the good and just brother.  Scenes for future episodes have me interested, as always (particularly in that scene where Dean is in sunglasses, yum!), but this episode was not anywhere near my favorite after a few stellar ones.  The brothers are back together and we’ll see how it goes.

PS  Just wanted to thank BuddyTV for pointing my little blog out to people, this is officially my biggest blog day yet and I know it’s thanks to Buddy’s tweet.  All you SPN fans, thanks for coming by, I talk about every episode and hope you all come back for more, would love to discuss with you.  Thanks to the new people who have commented, I love it!

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At the end of the world, don't you want these two standing beside you?  Or laying on top of you?  Or...

At the end of the world, don't you want these two standing beside you? Or laying on top of you? Or...

Free To Be You And Me was an apt name for this week’s Supernatural episode but I rather enjoyed Dean’s “Personal space” comment to Castiel and decided to use that as my title instead.  I was definitely able to see where the slash fic writers get their inspiration this week, the Cas/Dean personal space moment was rather fraught with pretty, wasn’t it?

I guess the thing that I most take away from this episode is the belief that this season really does have to be it for the show.  How can it not be? If Sam is indeed Lucifer’s vessel while Dean is Michael’s, then one has to destroy the other in the end, unless they somehow find a way NOT to be vessels.  I know last season looked like a brother vs. brother showdown but it looks like they delayed the inevitable to this season, right?  Well, we’ll explore the heavy stuff later, I’d rather focus on the adorable first.

I love when Castiel lies or attempts to.  Adorable.

I love when Castiel lies or attempts to. Adorable.

Dean + Castiel + lying= hilarity & awesomeness.  That’s my quadratic equation right there (first and last math reference I’ll make on this site, unless Days brings Max back I guess).  I was giggling all through the scene in the police station when Dean was trying to convince the cop that Castiel was in the FBI and Cas kept trying to tell the guy the truth.  I even loved his little upside down flip of the FBI identification.  So cute.  And then blurting that it’s angels & demons battling at the gas station while Dean kept trying to cover up what he was saying and turn it around…just adorable.  I love Cas’ utter inability to lie.

This is the face Castiel was sporting in the whore house.  Awesome.

This is the face Castiel was sporting in the whore house. Awesome.

Then, of course, we had the adventure at the Den of Iniquity.  The look of pure terror on Castiel’s face was priceless. (I’ll get a screencap later, Supernatural Series doesn’t have them up yet).   Mischa Collins totally owned this episode.  I knew he’d screw up his devirginization but it was cute that he did it by telling the girl that her daddy issues were wrong.  And how much did I love that Dean set out to get him laid anyway?  It was so Dean!

Dean giving Castiel payment advise..the face!

Dean giving Castiel payment advise..the face!

You know, before he even said it I was thinking to myself that it was damn good to see Dean having fun again.  Then he told Cas that he was and that he hadn’t laughed like that in years and I got to wondering when the last time he had fun really was.  That will require a marathon SPN watch that I have no time for but I will keep it in mind.  The simple truth of it was, Dean finally feels free and he seems to be enjoying it.  He’s not letting worries of Sam get him down anymore…I don’t think we’ve ever seen a Dean unencumbered before and I think I’m definitely going to enjoy it while it lasts.  I imagine things will get dark for him soon enough but right now I’m going to enjoy Dean’s road alone.  I hope Cas comes back to him soon though.  God Quest 2009 will only be fun if the two of them are together.

One more classic Cas face.

One more classic Cas face.

Like Dean and Castiel, I do not subscribe to Raphael’s belief that God is dead.  Maybe he’s just in a coma (yeah I went to the Dogma well again, sue me).  Maybe God is just laying low because he doesn’t know who to trust, seeing as some of his angels were busy starting Armageddon.  Time will tell, I suppose, but I figure if we’ve got the devil, God is lurking somewhere.

Sucks to have your ex morph into the devil.

Sucks to have your ex morph into the devil.

Speaking of El Diablo (I could play with devil names all day long), he’s apparently searching for Sam.  He can’t find him physically but he can get into his mind I guess, thus he sent Jessica to make him feel like crap and prime the pump for future vessel inhabitation.  That is apparently not a word but I like it so it stays.  Sam is kicking it in a bar working under the name of Keith and avoiding the advances of the waitress.  Libby?  I don’t really care, she was just there to bring out Sammy’s story and witness the showdown with the hunters.

I am not on board with the sideburns, Sammy.  The shirtlessness worked though.

I am not on board with the sideburns, Sammy. The shirtlessness worked though.

I find it interesting, like I did last week, to see fellow hunters react to Sam now.  I think he’s going to run into this issue all year long and being separated from Dean isn’t going to help matters any.  I didn’t expect them to try to force Sam to drink the demon’s blood but that was a pretty good scene I thought.  Libby got to see what Sam’s demon really is and learn that maybe some things are indeed unforgivable.  When she told Sam that nobody could be that bad or do something so heinous that they couldn’t be forgiven I snorted.  Hello, chick, crack a history book, you’ll find plenty of people who were evil and don’t deserve our pity.  Dumbass.  Not that I include Sam in this category, but I thought it was a dumb statement anyway.

You're my vessel!  Who me?  Yes, you!  Couldn't be! Yep it's you!

You're my vessel! Who me? Yes, you! Couldn't be! Yep it's you!

So now we have Sam swearing up and down that he will NEVER invite Lucifer into himself.  Great.  Just like he would NEVER drink demon blood and betray his brother and lose control.  Becoming a pariah with his fellow hunters, estranged from his brother, alone…yeah that’s a recipe for a Sam disaster in the making, isn’t it?

Let’s say Sam and Dean do become Lucifer and Michael, respectively, and somehow manage to come out alive.  According to Castiel, slobbering in a mental ward is the best case scenario.  Unless of course God decides to show up then and restore our lovelies.  I don’t know.  I’m very intrigued by this idea of Dean vs. Sam carrying out all the way to the bitter end.  It looks like we’ll get a preview next week of a future showdown, complete with a pothead Castiel for giggles.  This episode wasn’t an instant classic (except for the Castiel stuff, that was priceless) but it does have me excited for what is to come.  Which I guess is the important thing.  See you next week for more discussion of what is and what may be.  In the meantime, I’ll work on invading Dean’s personal space…for my diary of course. hehe.

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Dear God, it's me, Nole.  What is it with me and hot guys in sunglasses?  More please!

Dear God, it's me, Nole. What is it with me and hot guys in sunglasses? More please!

I could do one of my usual scene by scene breakdowns of this week’s Supernatural but honestly I don’t feel like it and I don’t think that’s what is important to highlight this week.  We were back to honest to goodness fighting, albeit with 99% more apocalypse and it felt good to get down to battling again.  It also felt good to see Rufus, Jo and Ellen.  I hope that we’ll see more of them as the year and the war continue.

It was good to see Ellen, Rufus and Jo again.

It was good to see Ellen, Rufus and Jo again.

No, what’s important to talk about is the continuing gulf between Dean and Sam; a gulf that is apparently so wide that they’ve decided to get away from each other for awhile.  I really loved how this episode demonstrated the rift between the boys, beyond the obvious of Ellen calling them out on their behavior, but also showed that Dean still loves Sam, even though he resents what he did.  Dean’s reaction to having to give up that necklace that Sam gave him so many years ago seemed to me to be a nod to the love he still has for his brother, despite everything.

Um yeah, this is solely here because Jensen looks very hot.

Um yeah, this is solely here because Jensen looks very hot.

But that love is not enough anymore, as shown clearly but Dean’s distrust of Sam wanting to go off on his own and his reaction to Sam’s decision to leave the fight.  Also telling was what Dean thought was demons had Sam, he initially ran to the door to go find his brother first and ask questions later but reined himself in to formulate a plan with Ellen rather than run to Sam right away.  Dean’s always been smart but impulsive but he checked his natural instinct to protect his brother.  It wasn’t exactly covert but I thought it was a good way for the writers to let us know just where Dean’s head was at without him talking about it.

Physically close together but emotionally miles apart.

Physically close together but emotionally miles apart.

I found it interesting the way that Ellen greeted Dean with a hug and then a slap but did nothing to Sam.  Even though she said you boys she really focused on Dean.  This could be because of the fact that she definitely knows Dean better, but could it be an indication of something more?  It doesn’t seem like she knew what Sam had done (yet another example of Dean protecting Sam without really doing anything) but it helped to show how isolated Sam truly is right now.  Dean seems to be the important brother; the possible vessel of Michael, the talisman he wears can find God, the old friends/hunters seeming to be rallied around Dean rather than Sam…I found it a very interesting.  I know last season was rather Deancentric but it was still about Sam’s powers, Sam’s importance in the war, Sam’s deceit.  This season right now looks to be about Dean’s importance.  As a Dean girl, I’m not going to complain.

Another interesting nugget we learned was that God was indeed the one who blasted Sam and Dean into an airplane and put Castiel back together again.  For that I say Yay God!  But apparently God’s not hanging in heaven right now, he’s kicking it on earth Dogma style (if Alanis Morrisette makes a cameo this season I demand Chris Rock with her) and Cas needs to find him to get him to battle Lucifer.  Of course, I’m a little confused as to why God doesn’t just hook up with his favorite angel and the boys to do so, seeing as he saved them both a day or so ago.  Why do that and then go into hiding when your ex-pal is back to destroy earth?  I’m sure we’ll get an explanation at some point but that was a little weird.

You're welcome, Rameau!

You're welcome, Rameau!

Also, our favorite angel no longer has healing powers, thus rendering him useless to Bobby.  I had to laugh at Bobby’s reaction to that news…his attitude got passed down to Dean by osmosis because their angry responses to the angels was quite similar.  I also loved seeing that Castiel dry humor back, saying that God was not in a piece of flatbread.  Dammit, I’ll have to throw out that tortilla I’ve been saving that resembled the Virgin Mary!

This episode definitely wasn’t blow me out of the water good but it was a nice segway into the adventures of Dean & Cas.  I am really looking forward to seeing Mischa and Jensen play off each other, I think they’ve got great chemistry together (no, not calling Becky and the slash writers, although that is a lot of pretty!).  I do hope that Dean and Sam are not separated for a long time but I do feel it’s a good direction to take the show for now.  All last season I expected Dean to reach the breaking point with Sam but he never did, until maybe the last couple of episodes.  I think I like this better though, the boys stayed together then despite what was going on because they more or less needed to be.  Now, they have nothing to stop, the apocalypse is here, so they don’t really need to stay together.  While Sam’s soul searching and trying to get his shit together, Dean will hopefully have some in-depth conversations with Castiel and reach a point of forgiveness for his brother.  This is the break we anticipated, it just came later; emotionally they’re miles apart and now they’re physically going to be.  I find that fascinating.

Next week Sam sees Jessica, aka Tyra from Friday Night Lights and Dean and Cas begin their search for God.  Should be fun (and I will probably call her Tyra in the blog, just be prepared!)  I’m interested to see how the boys do apart.  See you next week to discuss it!

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Are you there, devil?  It's me, Sam Winchester!

Are you there, devil? It's me, Sam Winchester!

How sweet is it that my favorite returning fall show was the first to return?  The Pretty was back on my screen with a vengeance on Thursday night.  Vengeance, such a pretty word and rather fitting for Supernatural, no?  I loved the episode, naturally, so good to have our boys back.

Dean's expression matched my own, WTF were they doing in a plane as Lucifer rose?

Dean's expression matched my own, WTF were they doing in a plane as Lucifer rose?

Sympathy For The Devil picked up right where we left off last season, with Lucifer rising and our boys in much too close a proximity.  They can’t get out but all of a sudden they’re in an airplane confused as hell.  As was I, of course.  I assumed the angels had gotten our boys to safety but it seems a bigger boy has come out to play this season.  What’s Lucifer without God?

Sam tries several times to apologize for what he’s done but Dean isn’t having it.  I have to admit that I’m glad that the Sam/Dean tension is not going to magically disappear in their need to unite to fight the devil.  I’ll get more into Dean’s speech at the end later, because as usual it was powerful and moving and deserves it’s own discussion as I assume it’s going to be an overriding theme for much of the season.

Chuck!  No more needs to be said, I love him!

Chuck! No more needs to be said, I love him!

Who didn’t smile at the return of the Prophet Chuck?  There is something about that guy that just makes me light up.  I wish he’d go on the road with Sam and Dean, maybe as a new series (what, more Jensen is a bad thing?)  I love that the first thing he did was attack Sam as well.  What, he does deserve a little bit of a beat down doesn’t he?  Dean’s reaction to Sam’s full on Vader was interesting…does he think there’s a demon in his brother for real?

Dean's reaction to "Vader" Sam.  So much in that face.

Dean's reaction to "Vader" Sam. So much in that face.

Now, I knew going in that Misha Collins had been made a regular cast member, so news of Castiel’s smiting by the angels didn’t hit as hard as it could have had I not known or seen his name in the credits.  But still…it hurt to think about our Pretty Cas being smited by an archangel and exploding all over Chuck’s house.  I’m quite glad we were not subjected to the sight of that, for Castiel should never explode.  Preserve the Pretty!  How much did you love that Dean’s first reaction was to go find Cas anyway?

Dean uses his "friend" Castiel's method to get rid of the angels.  Loved it!

Dean uses his "friend" Castiel's method to get rid of the angels. Loved it!

Only Dean Winchester would call an angel an asshat.  I loved his rage at Zachariah.  The angels assumption that Dean would just fall in line cracked me up, do they not know the man at all?  Bonus points for the return of the word “douche.”  Nobody does it like Dean.  I adored that Dean used Castiel’s method of getting rid of the angels and blasted them right out of Chuck’s house.  He’s a sly one, our Dean.  And Chuck’s “this sucks ass” in reaction to the appearance and disappearance of the angels just slayed me.  This show mixes humor in at the oddest times but it works 99% of the time anyway.

I admit it, I am using this picture for it's beauty, although this was from that scene, hehe.

I admit it, I am using this picture for it's beauty, although this was from that scene, hehe.

A small but beautiful moment occurred when Sam gave Dean the hex back he’d made and Dean asked how he knew how to make it to hide them from demons and angels and Sam admitted that it was Ruby.  That pause and that look on his face hit the right note of fear of telling Dean, hesitance and even some shame.  I liked that that made Dean ask about his brother’s potential withdrawal from the demon blood and that it was addressed because I think we’d all be wondering about it.  Supernatural methadone indeed…yay God?  Then Sam tries to apologize again and Dean still won’t listen.  Jensen’s face, not looking at Sam and refusing to discuss it, showed a hint of that anger and hurt that we get to see in full force later.  It was a nice scene that really did a lot but didn’t seem all that significant on first viewing.

The devil's meatsuit, a lonely man who lost his wife and child violently.

The devil's meatsuit, a lonely man who lost his wife and child violently.

I didn’t really get absorbed into the whole “devil finds a meatsuit” thing but I do enjoy the actor they’ve gotten to play him.  He’s already been on two of my favorite shows, Dexter & Lost, so why not get him on a third?  And he can do creepy really well, so bonus.  I like that the devil had to get his permission as well, just like the rest of the angels do, nice continuity.  I felt for the character as the devil screwed with him, showing him his dead wife and reminding him of their murdered child.

Okay, I admit I would probably pull a Becky if I got near Dean.

Okay, I admit I would probably pull a Becky if I got near Dean.

How beautiful is it that Chuck sent a slash fanfiction writer to meet Sam and Dean?  And that her screenname was SamLicker81?  Of course I still fail to understand why people in love with male characters write them as gay, but it’s hilarious here so who cares?  Of course I wanted to bitchsmack her when she told Dean that he was not what she pictured, but her molestation of Sam just killed me.  How could Dean not be what she pictured?  Devastatingly gorgeous doesn’t work for her?  hehe Oh well, she’s a Sam girl.  She brought the big news that Michael’s sword was lost somewhere, so she served a purpose other than making me laugh.  Her “no” when Sam asked if she could quit touching him was awesome.  I wonder how they got rid of her?

Sam was rather hurt by Bobby's rejection.

Sam was rather hurt by Bobby's rejection.

Alright, I knew in my heart that Bobby was not Bobby when he laid into Sam but it was still effective as all hell, made doubly so because Dean just stood there and didn’t interfere in any way like he normally would have.  The beginning could have been real, anger at him for not listening, but when he told Sam to lose his number after they finished it, if they finished it, that’s when you knew he couldn’t be Bobby.  Sam’s face though, the puppy dog hurt there, really tugged at the heart.

As if that didn’t drive it home, Bobby’s private conversation with Dean really did.  Saying that John was right about Sam all along and they should have possibly killed him.  Again, what resounded here was that though Dean said “Bobby” he didn’t stop him or yell at him for even hinting that maybe they should have killed Sam.  How much does Dean agree with that?  How does he feel about it?  I can’t wait to see that play out over the season.

Yeah, not liking new Meg at all.  Hopefully she was one and done.

Yeah, not liking new Meg at all. Hopefully she was one and done.

Yay for the return of Meg, not so yay with the actress that portrayed her.  But I assume she was a oneshot so maybe the next one will be cooler.  How dare she have kissed him?  Not remotely hot.  Plus Meg was Sam’s girl.  Seeing Bobby with that knife to Dean and the real Bobby come through long enough to stab himself…that was beautiful.  His love for Dean shone through in that moment and brought to mind Daddy John’s own possession.  He peeked out for a minute but only to tell Dean to kill him, all for revenge on Yellow Eyes.  Bobby just again proved that he was the boys “real” father, at least for me.

The boys head to John’s storage locker and find dead demons littering the floor.  Dean’s “Oh thank God, the angels are here” cracked me up.  Zachariah then tells us that Dean is Michael’s sword, or his vessel.  Dean takes this news as only Dean would, with scoffing and anger.  “Life as an angel condom, that’s real fun!”  Of course, Zachariah gets all tough angel on Dean and breaks Sam’s legs to try to get Dean to comply.  Dean won’t.  Dean figures out that they can’t make him let Michael inside so he refuses.  Zachariah threatens Bobby with life in a wheelchair, Dean still says no.  He gives Dean stage 4 stomach cancer, coughing up blood he still says no.  He takes away Sam’s lungs, Dean asks that they just kill them both then.  Zach has no intention of doing so but plans on having lots more fun torturing the boys..angels and demons really aren’t so different are they?

Welcome back my pretty avenging angel!

Welcome back my pretty avenging angel!

Fortunately, in that moment, Castiel returns in a flash of white light.  He quickly kills the other two angels and faces off with Zachariah.  Zach is pretty stunned that Cas is still alive and well and Cas points out that it’s a good question and it’s a good question how Dean and Sam got away from Lucifer since the angels didn’t do it.  It’s not ever stated but it’s pretty heavily implied that God has decided to become an active participant in the war.  Zachariah is scared off and follows Cas’ orders of restoring the boys and leaves.  Castiel puts Noki and Sygil (spelling?) into Sam and Dean to hide them from all angels, including Lucifer.  He confirms that he was dead but disappears instead of telling them how he’s back.  I guess God will be everywhere in this season but not discussed?

I love that Bobby was screaming at his doctor when we returned.  Real Bobby being back was good to see.  Dean’s big speech for Bobby was a true Dean hubris moment.  I loved seeing that, even though he admitted to Sam that it was all bull.  Still, that was Dean, being tough for Bobby and pumping him up when he should be down.  I loved Bobby’s apology to Sam, letting him know he’d never cut him out of his life no matter what he did.  Sam’s relief and pretty smile was touching.

Dean's suppressing a lot of emotion all episode, it was nice to see it come out in the end.

Dean's suppressing a lot of emotion all episode, it was nice to see it come out in the end.

Of course, he doesn’t get to revel in Bobby’s forgiveness for long.  Dean tells him that they don’t have a chance to win this war, not that that’s going to stop him from fighting.  Sam again presses Dean to talk about it, about what Sam did and Dean’s feelings about it and this time he gives in.  Our boys have their best conversations next to the Impala, don’t they?  Dean tells him he tried but he can’t pretend that everything is alright.  It’s not and it’s never going to be.  He chose a demon over his own brother and look what happened.  Sam says he would give anything to take it back and Dean says he knows he would.  Dean tells him that he was the one he depended on the most and Sam let him down in ways he couldn’t even say.  He is having a hard time forgiving and forgetting.  Sam asks what he can do and Dean tells him there’s nothing.  He doesn’t think that they can ever be what they once were and he can’t trust him.  He walks towards the car, glances back at Sam and gets in.

Powerful, much needed moment.  It can’t go back to the way things were, not in one day.  They’re going to have to work to build each other up this whole season and I look forward to watching that play out.  I want to see if Sam’s tempted by blood again and Dean’s reaction to that.  Sam disappearing for an hour or two and Dean’s suspicion over that.  All of it is deserved and necessary.

All in all this was an excellent episode back.  I could have probably done with less Lucifer vessel stuff but I understand that they were establishing the man that would harbor the fallen angel and why he would.  I loved the humor but especially loved the angst.  I’m thrilled the show is back and starting off on a high note.  The season clips ahead, with the return of Ellen and Jo and that other hunter whose name escapes me have me excited.  Back next week with more!

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